.:♥:. Breaking Barriers .:♥:.

Okay so I do have a lot of catching up to do from this summer, I will get to it I promise, but I was having a bit of a struggle with God recently and just haven't been doing much of anything. So anyway I really needed to write this tonight, and man do I have some good news. I finally broke through a small piece of my barrier from God tonight, right now as I'm writing, about 15 minutes ago I could feel the peace of God once again and ohmigoodness does it feel just simply amazing.
Alright now don't think "Oh huzzah she's alright again!" Hah no. No where near close, but I have taken the first step again and I am starting to see God again.
So anyways a lot had happened this past year and me being the prideful person I am, decided I could totally deal with it on my own and I didn't need God's help. Little did I know that was the first step to my separation from God.
I wasn't sleeping well, I wasn't eating well, no longer could I feel joy, I felt frusterated and angry quite often, then I would get even more irritated for feeling this way. What the heck was wrong with me? Well I still don't quite know what it is, but I am just so ecstatic that I am feeling God again. Well I was just having a heart-to-heart with one of my closest friends and he was giving me all sorts of advice, and finally something he said just clicked. Like it was a 'click' everything fell together moment. So the gist of what he said was "Jess I really care about you and seeing you like this makes me sad because I don't know what to do. Just remember you have a friend that loves you." ... *ting!* As if that whole click moment wasn't enough this song came on and it just broke me.




Yea I just started crying like I hadn't cried for the past couple months, and it was finally me letting Jesus see my brokeness once again, and saying that I really did need him.

As I was writing this one of my favourite songs came on and I thought it was just the perfect way to wrap this all up.



Please pray for me as I continue in my journey of further opening my heart to Jesus,
God Bless you all, and for those of you who haven't found the peace of God, I pray that someday it will find you.